I want a dog.

I want a Pomeranian right now.

Work sucks.

Karma is a bitch. 

Beer is best.

I bought a new car.

It's beautiful. I'm in love.

70th post

I just realized I had 69 posts, (giggity) haha! Anyways I'm waiting to bored my first plane to go to AL then I'll be going to LittleRock AR-Kansas.

It should be a good trip, I don't have to go to work for a while 2 WEEKS. That's INSANE, I've never been away from work that long.

I'm bored. I think we will start boarding within the next 20 min. I just want to get this shit over with.

This plane is a small, actually it's probably a large, but it's a RJ so a smaller airliner. The next plane I'm on is a B737 so that should be cool.

That's all for now. I'm spent.

I never write.

I'm watching NCIS so.. this will have to be short haha. I'VE NEVER SEEN THIS EPISODE AND IT'S GOOD.

So. I bought new vibram's They are thinner and more for everyday wear. Anyways, I ran in them today for the first time. It was AWESOME. I got blisters though which sucks.

I go on leave in 2 days. I'm so excited. Today is my sunday and tomorrow is my thursday. Sooo. I'm pretty happy right now.

My legs look huge and my feet look manly. Regardless they are awesome shoes.

I also bought this sweet thang,

I LOVE IT! 

Life seems hard right now, I'm just floating along. 

Life

My life feels out of control, and it's not even close. I'm really down and depress right now. It's really not ok, (TBII)

Anyways. My PT test is in a few days. I'm not looking forward to it, I need to run more. I know I can run 1.5 miles. . I just hate it, and my legs hurt.

Whatever.

I don't feel good.

My hat :)

I knitted this sweet thing. I'm so awesome hahahaha

I need to get my act straight.

I've had a rough few days, I'm so angry and irritated. There is loud music, I'm angry. I'm watching pushing tin though so.. thats ok I guess..

I'm just really down.

It's funny..

As I begin to write this- there is loud music thumping away next door. It makes me crazy. CRAZY.

I'm also really anxious all the time.

I switched back to verizon today, AT&T can suck it. It cost me like 300 dollars, but what the hell ever.

I'm so tired right now.

so tired.

I'm currently watching NCIS, I love it. Today is my day off.. and I have nothing to do. I'm going to go vent on my secret blog, it will be awesome.

Ohio

I think I'm ready to get OUT of Ohio. I think it might be sucking the life out of me.. I could be wrong- but something feels.. draining about being here. I've only been here just over a year and I'll probably be here for a few more years. What a downer.

I was woken up today by guys cutting down trees outside my room, at exactly 9 o'clock. I guess that's not super early.. It's just an annoying way to wake up. I feel really blah right now.

Oh- I also broke the screen on my phone. I need to get another one but I can't afford it. Iphones are like $750 dollars or something ridiculous like that.

I don't know what to do about it.

In hate.

I'm in hate with my running ability. I really need to step that shit up considering my PT test is in 26ish days.  I'm honest to GOD worried about it. Though I am more prepared this time than last- and I hadn't ran at all last time. So.. I should be ok. I hope so.

I had a really good dinner consisting of, whole wheat pasta with olive oil, salad, and laughing cow cheese/crackers.

mmm.

borrred.

mmm cookie.

I have a feeling

I have a feeling I'll be doing a lot of weird stuff alone this year. I'm listening to Christmas music and it's depressing me because that part of the year is my favorite part because of my family.. and they moved away.

I have weird things that I want to do because it reminds me of "home" - the home that doesn't exist anymore. Like, i want to go see the lights at the columbus zoo.. but I'm going to have to do that alone. Which is beyond depressing- but I have a feeling I will drive all the way over there on one of my days off and walk around the zoo alone. I just hate feeling like I have no home. It will suck so bad when the holidays come around I have people here that I could spend it with- but that doesn't matter it wont be the same and no matter what it wont feel like Christmas to me.

Well- I'm going to go be depressed now, I just wanted to document my annoying-sadness.

my watch supervisor made this hahahahaha he always says "You are an angry b today" because i see "b" instead of bitch and bad. HILARIOUS. I love it.

OH MY GOD

94.5 in Dayton is playing Christmas music- I'm literally freaking out. I can't fucking wait until winter time, and christmas. I'm so happy right now. It's ridiculous.

SO HAPPY.


On a side note, I came across a blog post on xanga, which was about proposals, This picture was in the blog:

This picture is from Michael Buble's wedding- Really? Who has that job? I want to be the lady in the middle of a table with cupcakes.

Either way, I thought that was a great way to propose to someone.. I don't know if I'd respond well to it hahaha but seeing it is cool. 

Touching

This might be the coolest picture I've ever seen.

Here is the story.

I love patriotic awesome pictures such as this. 

Don't Blink

I'm listening to "Don't Blink" by Kenny Chesney. I just feel like this song is really true. Life goes so freakishly fast. I'm always wanting life to move faster, wanting to get married.. have a family.. or whatever. There is no point in rushing the moments that are happening right now. I have to try and slow down and enjoy where I'm at in life. I realize that my life isn't perfect right now, but it's pretty damn good. I have good friends (at least some), I'm young, I have a steady job.. I'm doing something with my life. I have a relationship.. and even though it's not perfect because he's not here. It's still something with potential for a future.

The song says, Don't Blink.. Life goes faster than you think. It's SO true. I'm turning 21 on monday. I know that is still young, but it feels like I was just a kid.. and all of a sudden I'm 21 with a full time job in the military. It's just ridiculous. I think I want life to slow down a little bit. I'm always afraid that I'll look back on my life and regret how I went through it. It just doesn't dawn on me that everyday I'm living my life. This isn't high school- what happens today matters for my life.

Uh. I wish it wasn't so hot out. I want to run.. well I don't want to. I NEED to.

I'm slacking.

I never write anymore. I just have nothing to say my life is so.. the same all the time. I'm going to Alabama/Arkansas in 2 months. That is SO FAR AWAY. I am getting so sick of being a one, even though I'm part of a two. It's such a bitch sometimes. Like, when other people are out doing couple things.. but I am alone because my other is in a different state.

I'm lonely.

i made a mile!

Doesn't sound that great- but Holy hell! That is a huge accomplishment for me.. I haven't ran a full mile without stopping since basic training.  .. Yeah I've been a fat slacker.

I think I may have became a runner.

these shoes are a miracle worker.

Washing

My vibram's are in the washer, I hope the get clean.

I'm bored- my life is boring.. I need a hobby... AGH.

Jacket or Not

I can't decide if I want to wear a jacket or not, I'm going to a rehearsal dinner... I literally don't know if I should wear the jacket or not! I want to. I don't know. DAMN.

Lion King

I saw The Lion King broadway musical yesterday . .. . it was FANTASTIC. Plus I wore my new jacket and I looked supa fly.

Right? I know..

Josh comes home in a couple days. Should be good. I don't have much to say. 

Storage

I had to rent a storage unit today.. lameeeeee! Stupid family moving to Alabama. In the mean time- there is an NCIS marathon on today- woo hoo!!

Alsoo- I have a serious spending issues haha. I've bout the piano, dress shoes, vibrams, and this FANCY new jacket.

Ignore my face, and fat legs and focus on the AWESOME!  JACKET! I'm so excited about it, It's from express. I was with my mom yesterday at Easton  looking for something to wear to this wedding I have to go to. My initial thought was wearing it to the rehearsal dinner, but I'm totally wearing it to the wedding. I have these kick ass black pants that I LOVE! and my wonderful Boyfriend is going to buy me new pumps for my birthday. I'll be looking all fly and classy in my new grown-up suit. The under shirt that I'm wearing is also fancy. . . 

fancy right?!!?!?!?!!?!

I absolutely LOVE finding an outfit that when I put it on, I just know I HAVE to buy it. That's what happened when I put the jacket on. I'm very excited to wear it. 

I noticed today that on the cuffs when I roll the jacket up.. there appears to be make up, I hope I can get it off. 

Damn.

I just saw something that pissed me off a little, not the time or place to talk about it though. {sx}

Today is my Friday- thank the good lord. I don't have much to say.. I need something to bring me up though- I'm kind of on a down this morning.

Shoes I got for a wedding I have to go to.

I've been searching around running blogs to learn more about my new shoes.. I found this...

"Normally, when I run, my body parts sort of engage in a conversation amongst themselves. It goes something like this:

Brain: This is boring.
Heart: Why are we doing this again? I don’t like this.
Legs: Hey, it’s not so bad! Look sharp, Heart! Here comes a hill!
Heart: [GROAN] I hate hills.
Brain: You know what would be better than running? Shopping. In front of a computer.
Heart: Seriously? Really? You’re actually going to run up this hill?
Legs: Quit complaining! This is our chance to shine!
Feet: Wheee! Jumped over a puddle!
Brain: Oh, great, that stupid Lady Gaga song AGAIN. Does my iPod think that I am gay? This is the dullest thing we have EVER done.
Lungs: Holy hell, what is going on around here? Why is she doing this? I’m going to start wheezing.
Brain: YES. Do that, please. I can’t take the tedium.
Bladder: I’m full.

Yesterday, however, the tables were turned. I took my Vibram Five Finger shoes out for my first real RUN, and my internal bodily conversation went something like this.

Brain: Wow, this is really awesome. I am having fun. What is this feeling? Is that Lady Gaga on the iPod? I love Lady Gaga!
Heart: Ka-thump, ka-thump, ka-thump, yippeeeeeeeee!
Lungs: Hey, this ain’t so bad. Breathe in, breathe out. Breathe in, breathe out. I might be getting the hang of this shit!
Feet: These new Vibram Five Fingers are pretty sweet.
Brain: Now it’s Cher on the iPod! My MP3 player thinks that I am a gay man, and I am so cool with that!
Heart: Is that a hill? Let’s tackle it!
Legs: Ouch.
Brain: What’s that?
Legs: We said ouch. We hurt.
Heart: Was that… was that Legs?
Brain: I think so. Legs, what the hell?
Legs: Pain. Lots of pain. Sending the signal up to you now, Brain.
Brain: What the- oh, damn, that DOES hurt. What’s going on down there, fellas?
Legs: The Vibrams, they make our calves hurt a bit.
Brain: Do you think you can manage to run a while longer? I’m getting some serious endorphins right now, and I’d like to see where we can take this.
Legs: No.
Brain: What the hell do you mean, “No”? I’m in control here, anyway, so shut the hell up and keep going.
[five minutes pass]
Brain: Yeow! WHAT WAS THAT?
Legs: Oh, did you like that? That was a cramp. We’ve got some more of those coming, so be ready.
Heart: I could do this all day.
Brain: The Legs are picketing.
Heart: I’ve got rhythm! I’ve got music! I’ve got my gal, who could ask for-
Brain: Heart, Lungs, Feet… uh, Bladder?
Bladder: I’m good.
Brain: Well, Legs are throwing in the towel.
Bladder: Aren’t they usually the happiest of us all?
Brain: Yes, but I guess Feet’s new shoes are causing some problems.
Feet: Don’t blame ME. You bought the Vibrams, Brain.
Brain: Sure, yeah. OK. My bad. I guess we are supposed to start slower than this with the barefoot running thingie. So, care to head back?
Legs: Back? No, we’re going to stop here.
Brain: It’s 8:45PM in the middle of a 230 acre park. No, we are not stopping. We are going back to the car and heading home.
Legs: Fine, but we’re going to make you miserable the whole way back, and tomorrow. Don’t even THINK of wearing those purple high heels to work in the morning.
Brain: Tomorrow is casual day, so shut it. It’s brown ankel boots on Tuesday, everybody knows this."

I really thought the beginning was hilarious. 

Loud Music

Funny, I typed Loud in my "title" box and it added "music" for me. I'm about to kill someone. Luckily it got better because they moved the music outside so it doesn't shake my walls anymore. My question is why does it have to be so FUCKING loud?!!?!?! IT'S RIGHT FUCKING THERE! HAVE SOME RESPECT FOR THE PEOPLE WHO DON'T WANT TO LISTEN TO YOUR SHITTY FUCKING MUSIC!!! FUCKKKKK!!! I literally, can't take it. I am about to fucking throw a large cinder block at all of their heads. 

On a brighter note, I bought the Vibram Five Finger Shoes. They are hideous but FANTASTIC. I ran for the first time in them today- amazing. 

They are the same shoe's one of my brothers has hahaha. AWESOME!

Tattooooo

These are my tattoos in order from newest to oldest. Poor quality, but I love them.

I wish

I wish I could go on an amazing adventure and see awesome things.. Instead I got myself stationed in Ohio where I've already lived, where there is nothing to discover. I just want to go somewhere so I can experience something new and exciting. 

This boring stuff just isn't cutting it.

I want this food right now.

I'm so bored all the time, I have to work a swing today- should be boring.. I'm hoping I don't have to work local. I need some serious ground proficiency time. I got a ridiculous amount of local last month, and like 8 hours in ground. Not ok.

I have the "racks on racks" song stuck in my head. It's awful. 

Oh, I'm trying to learn "A Whole New World" on the Piano. I'm sucking ass on it. I also have two huge boxes in my room from my piano and I don't know where to put them. ANNOYING.

When Josh was here we went putt-putting. It was hot as hell, but pretty fun. 

failed attempt at the tourist pose. 

I think he comes back in 15 days.

Digital Keyboard

I spent $400 on a digital keyboard. I'm so excited about it.

This might be my greatest purchase EVER. It's 88-keys, and weighed. I am so glad I wasn't cheap and bought it for myself. 

:)

I have been slacking

I need to get another tattoo... I really wish I could get my bird redone, I might go in and ask them if they can make it not look like ass

Josh is in town- I have to go to work- GAY

Ah

According to the lady at the commissary, I have a beautiful tan. I think that's a win.

My eye's are so itchy. I need eye drops.

Sun

I laid out in the sun today- it was awesome. I got a little color. I love being tan. I wish I was tan all the time.

mmmm.

My legs look fat, but at least I'm tan?

I've been on a shopping spree. Look how cute I look!!

I didn't buy the first pair of shoes, I just bought the second. I wanted the first ones tho. 

MOTHA F*CKAAAAA!!!

I just need to get this out:

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Ok. I just needed to do that. Now I'm going to go think about rainbows. 

Uhh