Real Wives of Orange County

Or what ever it's called. It's making me think.. It's strange.. I don't know.. Ugh!

Today is my Friday.. but I only have one day off because I have "War-Fighter Training" Sometimes I can't get over the stupid stuff we have to do @ this place. It's also a nice day today, which means people will be flying.

I need to go to LA tan to cancel my tanning package.

I also think I'm going to buy a new cell phone, so I can cut the cost of my bill. I don't know.. we'll see.


I found this article, I really liked it.

"Virginity You can't lose something that isn't real"

This is why I'm a bad airman

• I text whilst at PT
• Apparently I was in EDIT training at some point (I definitely wasn't)
• I'm not confident enough

Good stuff. Only 4.5 years to go!

Maybe I should go to church. 

11 Years.. yesterday.

My father was gone 11 years yesterday. I drove to Marysville to visit his grave. Very depressing. I wrote him a letter and left it there. It was depressing.

Today is my sunday, I have to go to work tomorrow. I might go get another tattoo today, another white one.  I haven't decided yet. I need to go walking as well. I think I'll wait a little bit.. hopefully it will get slightly warmer. Plus- my work out clothes are in the laundry. I can't wait to get paid, I hate having no money. I need to buy something for above my TV.. I moved the plant that was up there over to my microwave and now it's just empty. No money = no things.

I'm also watching CSI- I'm totally addicted to these shows.

I've been thinking about buying a new phone off ebay. I like my iPhone but I'm so tired of it. I have a bad habit of buying a new phone every few months.. I just get bored.

lol...LOL!!

Uhh. I don't get to see my boyfriend for a month and a half. It's very upsetting- but I think we can handle it.

Hmm. It's a beautiful day outside..

The view from my window. 

Not so NEGATIVE

Apparently the world will end if I'm not negative and angry... I'm not sure where people get the idea that I'm the super negative angry person. Just because I speak out loud- and don't hold everything in doesn't mean I'm negative and angry. I've never been able to get away from that persona that has been created. I've literally been stuck with it since I can remember.. I don't know how to get rid of it.

Even if I meet new people- the social networking and communication we have.. links that person to other people I know and they some how also conclude that I'm angry and negative.

People just don't get my humor, or sarcasm.. or anything. Maybe I am negative, maybe I am angry.. but that doesn't make me incapable of having friends, or holding conversation. It doesn't make me any less capable then a fake-ass happy person.

People need to stop judging me and let me be.

I need to get away from these people and start over.

I want to go there, and sit in that chair.. and just.. be content and happy. 

Yikes

I want to smoke, the craving right now is REALLY bad. Not ok, this quitting shit is for the birds. Lame.

Also as a quick side note, I want to make babies in Ohio.. and then dress them in this. A bit creepy? my b.

http://www.wireandtwine.com/store/products/madeinohio-kids.html

Half pay?

The government is shutting down and I'm only getting paid half a pay check.

fuck that.

PNS-DAY

I'm in the Pensacola airport.. leaving Florida. Very good trip.. I had to hold tears back as I said goodbye. I HATE saying goodbye. I wish I wasn't in the air force so I could just stay here until I wanted to go home. I literally- can not stand goodbyes. I feel like I've said too many of them during my short 20 years. Regardless.. Very good trip. Florida was beautiful.. I'm sad to be going back to OH.

mehh. Ohio sucks.